The Troglodyte of Unrequited Love

Darkness crawls in from the corners,
pulling the shades down over me
until I am drenched in the pitch of a
sadness that sees no end in sight. If
this is the punishment for falling in
love with an unattainable damsel,
then I happily relinquish my
feelings if it means I may be spared
such repercussions, even though I
realise an even darker doom awaits
me at the conclusion of this
transaction.

Like all love that is unrequited, I
inevitably wanted more, and when
my feelings reached an intensity
from which an explosion of internal
madness was the only eventual end,
with much folly I announced to this
here universe how I loved thee with
all my heart and soul, to be recieved
only by a nothingness that blighted
me with an ocean of unrelenting
tears.

Much like the break-up I never did
see coming, I found myself
corrupted by a contagion of the
heart, where the only antidote was
what remained consistently
unavailable. Did I ask too much?
Should I have asked at all? I
wanted you to like my words, and
the man I have grown to become,
but never did such a feeling
consume you in its entirety, and
never will it do so.

I gain the most happiness I have
received in days however by
scraping a blade I hold so tentatively
across my skin, shedding my
exterior as red water weeps upon
the floor. I profusely pulverise my
external frame, obliterating that
which tethers my aching heart to
this ever hateful world, as my final
goodbye is written in the cadaver I
leave behind, which produces the
only ounce of happiness felt by all
who have had the displeasure of
knowing my foolhardy heart.

From the beginning, in my eyes you
were a gem that just appeared on
the horizon, illuminating the
portions of my charred existence
with an angelic light like none that
has ever shone before. This effigy
of gorgeousness may have become
corroded with the truthful touch
of barbaric honesty, but because I
am a hypocrite, I will happily
denounce my sadness in exchange
for a moment with your smile.

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About totalovrdose

I am an online journalist, video game reviewer, mental health advocate and post graduate university student. I am a massive video gaming geek; a lover of intellectual conversations; an award winning procrastinator; a devilishly charming nuisance and the definition of 'fun' (sometimes). My blog is filled with many a soporific love poem, and is simply the beginning in my quest to become a published author. Please stop by and say 'Hi!' (that rhymes!) :D

Posted on January 14, 2014, in Poetry and tagged , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 10 Comments.

  1. Aw. With poetry as beautiful as this, you should be able to win over any girl’s heart.

  2. Beautifully captures emotions many can relate to. Lovely.

  3. Beautiful and raw. Thanks for sharing!

  4. Beautifully crafted, but the pain in tough to read about, and I wish this just to be an expression of art and not the truth. It’s quite raw.

  5. Oh man that’s so gut wrenching – all the more because of my recent (and ongoing experience). And I see a lot of conflict there – you hint that you’d give up having had the relationship at all to be spared the pain. Yet later you’d still welcome her smile. Maybe I’m reading something into what is such an evocative piece. So well done.

    • Thank you. Your words are very appreciative. I’m sorry for the pain that you currently endure.
      Pain is such a weird place – it holds us back from continuing with our lives as it torments our hearts and minds with the struggles of what presented us with it in the first place – and yet what makes it even more painful is the love that we secretly continue to endlessly carry for the one’s we cared for, and inevitably cannot stop caring about. My interpretation at least.
      Thank you for taking the time to read and comment.

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